i always work to satisfy my strict demands first.
sometimes it seems impossible to achieve all the goals i set for myself.

perfection is deadly addictive.

i like it, but i don’t like it.

i’ve always sucked at drawing.
when i was 6, there was this difficult assignment in my drawing class, which asked us to depict an army guy, and i was (and always am) terrible at drawing people. so i asked my dad to help me and he did a really brilliant job. by brilliant i mean a mature kind of drawing, with sketches and such. when i showed the teacher “my” work, she gave me a 5 (over 10) and wrote this comment, “Parents please do not do the kid’s work.”
some weeks later, i got another assignment, which was a lot easier, with the topic of animal. so i came home and this time, i decided to not repeat my mistake. so i asked my mom, and she drew me an awkward hen. it didn’t seem to have any feather, but i didn’t even complain. the next day, i handed in the drawing and got a 6. what’s more important, the teacher didn’t even notice that it was done by an adult. my mom rocked it!
hence i really hope that if i were to have a kid, she would be better at drawing than me.

the hardest thing to do is to stay hopeful while you’re not actually trying.

i really think i’ve flattened the back of my head by spending most of the day lying in bed.

mom insisted that cockroaches should all be killed or they’ll be everywhere in the house.
as a matter of fact i always let them just go away. and every single time i silently hope that they won’t produce too much offspring.

from what i observe, we’d never been that happy. it’s good to know that nothing big really happened.

somehow it’s always ridiculously cold in my room when the sun’s actually shining real hard outside.
i have this habit of reading stuff on my phone before trying to sleep at night and i happened to bring myself to read about Plath last night. the whole story is freaking sad. i’m just lucky i’ve never felt that depressed. but it’s really hard to defeat what my head makes up sometimes. fucking scary.
anyhow i’ve just solved the problem of google maps api v2 now and it turns out the bug was caused by an utterly stupid reason. thank god.